Soooo I tried using Blogspot and it basically sucked. One of my fellow Marine girls said she had tumblr, soooo I decided to try it out:) Anyway, I hope you read my intro because it is much too long to type again!!!

So I guess I will start out by talking about yesterday. I am sure I will back track to little comments about bootcamp and such. Just so you know!

So yesterday Kevin came home from Moutain and Desert training. He came to my house with a big thing of flowers and a card saying how much he missed me! We went out to eat and discussed getting engaged. We are both young still and I think he is really scared of getting engaged. I am more scared about his deployment and how we will keep up a healthy good loving relationship. I wish I had a live-in expert that could just answer all my questions allllll the time. But I do not, so I use google and youtube a LOT. I also have a page on facebook USMC/military faithful girlfriends and another one Military Family Members, we help eachother out a lot too. I just wish I knew if engagement was the right thing, it feels like the right thing but it is also very scary.

My main concern is him getting an alcohol problem or changing for the worse or going off the deep end while  he comes back. I know there will be an adjust period but he is the love of my life and my best friend…..I do not want to ever lose him…or the person he is inside.

All in all we had a good night. We got to talk about a lot of things. I finally broke down and told him how he was my hero and I don’t ever want to lose him and that I would ALWAYS be there for him. I don’t know how we are going to get through this together but I pray to God we do.

Well that is all for now.

Thanks for letting me vent :)

-Ash